Unapologetically

If a title was needed,
If people requested a box to be placed,
Around my exterior,

It would be Rebel,
It would be somebody,
Who does not conform to the expectations of others,

Does not confirm to what the past expects of me,
To what the ex expects of me,
Nor what fear expects of me,

I say what I want to say,
I do what I want to do,
People will either love or hate you for it,

Those people,
Overestimate the weight I give their opinion,
I’m just going to be me, unapologetically,

You don’t have to applaud,
You don’t have to cheer,
Just know, I am aware you are watching,

Need an example,
I wish for Black queens
To react accordingly,

“Black Barbie?
Nah, I’m an unapologetic,
Exquisite Black Queen,

Who’s intelligent, creative, courageous,
Confident, ambitious, and authentic.
My beauty is just a bonus!”

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Sex Addict 4 Stallion

On my mind,
Hear your voice in my head,
While I’m awake and asleep,
Feel your hands rubbing on my body,
While my eyes are closed,
Feel your booty in my face,
My head resting on my pillow,
Drooling from a wet dream,
Serving a true Queen,
A real Black Stallion,
Waiting for your instructions,

Role playing judge and a bad lawyer,
Cops and robbers,
Bonnie and Clyde,
Every scenario ends up with me tied up,
Taking a footlong strap on,
While on of your girls from Houston,
Repeatedly grind her pum pum over my mouth,

On my mind,
Hear your voice in my head,
While I’m awake and asleep,
Feel your hands rubbing on my body,
While my eyes are closed,
Feel your booty in my face,
My head resting on my pillow,
Drooling from a wet dream,
Serving a true Queen,
A real Black Stallion,
Waiting for your instructions,

One of us a settler,
The other an indian,
By the time midnight strikes,
You’ve savagely,
And violently,
Raped me 3 times,
Reminding me,
We ain’t even close to finished,

On my mind,
Hear your voice in my head,
While I’m awake and asleep,
Feel your hands rubbing on my body,
While my eyes are closed,
Feel your booty in my face,
My head resting on my pillow,
Drooling from a wet dream,
Serving a true Queen,
A real Black Stallion,
Waiting for your instructions,

After being locked up,
Spiked chastity,
Sleeping,
Sweating,
Blankets soaked,
Imagine you in Black Latex,
Dracula teeth,
Biting my neck,
Turning me into a creature of the night,
Thirsty for your pum pum,
Gin and Juice,
Eat your booty out,
Suffocate myself in them’ titties,
Resurrected over and over,

On my mind,
Hear your voice in my head,
While I’m awake and asleep,
Feel your hands rubbing on my body,
While my eyes are closed,
Feel your booty in my face,
My head resting on my pillow,
Drooling from a wet dream,
Serving a true Queen,
A real Black Stallion,
Waiting for your instructions,

Final lap,
Feel your golden caramel,
Priceless melanin,
Queen Stallion,
Barely able to squeeze out of them jeans,
First commandment,
For me to get on my hands and knees,
Crawl under an Olive Garden table,
Eat your pum pum,
Wore a short skirt,
No panties,
Hands running through my hair,

On my mind,
Hear your voice in my head,
While I’m awake and asleep,
Feel your hands rubbing on my body,
While my eyes are closed,
Feel your booty in my face,
My head resting on my pillow,
Drooling from a wet dream,
Serving a true Queen,
A real Black Stallion,
Waiting for your instructions,

Witnessed eyes rolling,
Into the back of your head,
Swallowed your pum pum juice,
Called me a good slave,
Took off the spiked chastity for 10 mins,
Still in bed,
Next to my lover,
You are my Queen,
Witnessed you rise from under the sheets,
Licked your lips,
Causing me to stiffen,
Writing your name on my hardwood,
Handcuffed me to the bed-frame,
Can’t escape,
You knew I wanted to cheat,
Tittie fucking me to death,
Riding me with vengeance,
Made a deal,
How fast could you make me cum,

On my mind,
Hear your voice in my head,
While I’m awake and asleep,
Feel your hands rubbing on my body,
While my eyes are closed,
Feel your booty in my face,
My head resting on my pillow,
Drooling from a wet dream,
Serving a true Queen,
A real Black Stallion,
Waiting for your instructions,

You are my Queen,
One and Only,
By the time the sun rose,
My lover laid unconscious,
You took her spot,
Motioned for me to serve,
Ate my breakfast like a good slave,
Willing to eat your pum pum,
No matter the time of the day,
Like it was The Last Supper,

On my mind,
Hear your voice in my head,
While I’m awake and asleep,
Feel your hands rubbing on my body,
While my eyes are closed,
Feel your booty in my face,
My head resting on my pillow,
Drooling from a wet dream,
Serving a true Queen,
A real Black Stallion,
Waiting for your instructions,

What can you do this Ramadan to help Muslims who suffer from a mental disorder?

Assalamu Alaikum

This post is for all Muslims suffering from a mental disorder as well as for those not suffering from a mental disorder. It is Ramadan and time for fasting. We have been given a (second) chance to worship Allah (s.w.t) and show our appreciation for everything we have received thus far.

Today we will be discussing why it is important for Muslims who suffer from a mental disorder to talk with their doctor before fasting. Also, it is important for Muslims who are able to fast to understand that a person suffering from a mental disorder already is burdened beyond belief. Adding fasting to the equation would make everything worse.

For many, Ramadan poses the challenge of the inability to take medications during the day. Doctors must be consulted and informed of the commencement date of Ramadan and they are best placed in deciding whether one is capable of the fast or not. Making the decision on your own to fast, without doctor approval is irresponsible and religiously unacceptable.

Medicine and healing are Islamic functions. There is no shame or sin in not fasting due to medical prohibition. Allah, the Al-Mighty, Knows His creation best and it is He who said:

“Ramadan is the (month) in which was sent down the Qur’an, as a guide to mankind, also clear (Signs) for guidance and judgment (Between right and wrong). So every one of you who is present (at his home) during that month should spend it in fasting, but if any one is ill, or on a journey, the prescribed period (Should be made up) by days later. Allah intends every facility for you; He does not want to put to difficulties. (He wants you) to complete the prescribed period, and to glorify Him in that He has guided you; and perchance ye shall be grateful.” Al-Baqarah 2:185

From what I have learned about my own religion is that an illness which there is no prognosis of gainful recovery wherein fasting could be sustained without harm. In this case, one is not obliged to make up the fast; rather they should feed one poor person for each day of Ramadan.

For those who don’t suffer from a mental disorder. What can you do to help Muslims this Ramadan who do suffer from a mental disorder?

1) just be there for them
2) listen to them
3) be inclusive

These are three steps of showing compassion and sincerity towards those suffering from a mental disorder. It is important to be there for them even if they are not fasting. The fact that they can’t fast may cause negative emotional side effects. This is why it is important for Muslims to be there for one another in times of need.

Hopefully this post helps those who are pondering whether to fast or not.

Faded Freaks

Wrap ya up,
Bend ya ova,
Love ya much,
Fuck ya such,

Bring ya closer…

Wear a short skirt,
Nothing underneath,
Rub up against me,

Be nasty,
Give it up,
Split the work,
50/50,

Want it a little rough,
Maybe a little control,
I’ll give you a little power,

Wine flawlessly,
Let me sign my initials,
When the time comes,
Sign your initials on my wood,

Wrap ya up,
Bend ya ova,
Love ya much,
Fuck ya such,

Bring ya closer…

Wanna’ lick it up,
Work all night,
Pull a little hair,
Grab ya booty,

Grind up against the kitchen sink,
Play water games,
Chocolate syrup,

Ready for whatever,
Nice and slow,
Fast and furious,
Spread them thighs,

Place ya on the dryer,
Feel every vibration,
Got ya’ squirting,

Wrap ya up,
Bend ya ova,
Love ya much,
Fuck ya such,

Bring ya closer…

Kiss ya neckline,
Hold ya’ tight,
Love ya’ all night,

Till it hurts,

Faded love,
Knock at the door,
Both of our significant others,
We lied to each other,

Hold it for a minute,
At least till we cum at the same time,
Follow me,

Wrap ya up,
Bend ya ova,
Love ya much,
Fuck ya such,

Bring ya closer…

Sweet Embrace (You Are My Belly Dancer)

My heart weighs heavy,
Whenever you are not in my arms,
It warns me,
If I don’t keep you safe,
Everyday I’ll live in regret,

You are the reason why I wake up everyday,
Willing to fight another day,
Promising this will not be the day that I give up,

Instead, I’ll fight for my life,
Knock down every wall,
Even if it means,
Enduring travesty,
Breaking down,
Crying due to surviving,

Ending with marks on my arms,
Trying to cut away the pain,
Only to realize,
Dull blades have an evil intent,
While your hands,
Only want to bandage my wounds,

My heart weighs heavy,
Whenever you are not in my arms,
It warns me,
If I don’t keep you safe,
Everyday I’ll live in regret,

When I am high above the clouds,
Dreaming of you wearing one of my dress shirts,
Practicing your belly dancing,
Even though you ain’t Egyptian,
Rather Indonesian,

Caramel skin,
When you sweat,
Gold drips from your sweet melanin,
It is a joy to watch,
My dress shirt buttons fly across the room,

Understand, I may be crazy,
Suffering from hallucinations,
My mind knows for certain,
You are my reality,
Not a fictional character,

Ending the night,
In a sweet embrace,
Picking you up,
Hugging on your thighs,
Squeezing your behind,

My heart weighs heavy,
Whenever you are not in my arms,
It warns me,
If I don’t keep you safe,
Everyday I’ll live in regret,

Islam & Mental Health (VLOG 22)

What I am about to say is my own personal opinion. It is based on what I have been told in the past as well as learned about Islam. If you disagree with what I am saying well (fuck off)…

A lot of the time when I talk with other Muslim brothers and sisters. I am treated as a child. As if I know nothing about my religion. I am told Qur’an verse after Qu’ran verse. Most of the time they deal with Satan, spirits, and/or demons.

For instance, I am told frequently…

[Satan] said [to Allah], “Because You have put me in error, I will surely sit in wait for them on Your straight path. Then I will come to them (humans) from before them and from behind them and on their right and on their left, and You will not find most of them grateful [to You].” [ Allah ] said, “Get out of Paradise, reproached and expelled. Whoever follows you among them – I will surely fill Hell with you, all together.”

What does it mean? Well a lot of modern-day Muslims have interpreted it as meaning Satan is the cause of schizophrenia and/or other psychological disorders. Anyone who believes this is a mother-fucker and deserves to be punched in the face. Furthermore, the same Muslims believe other people’s envy can cause mental disorders.

If you ask me whether this is a sign of people’s ignorance or a negative aspect of Islam, I would suggest it is a sign of people’s ignorance. Many Muslims still believe that mental disorders are caused by Jinn, Angels, or Devils. Psychological disorders have become taboo and patients are denied modern treatment.

The next question that should be asked is what sort of evidence do such Muslims use to justify their ignorant beliefs?Ibn Rajab reports that classical Arab doctors would say:

الْحَمِيَّةُ رَأْسُ الدَّوَاءِ وَالْبِطْنَةُ رَأْسُ الدَّاءِ

Diet is the foundation of medicine and gluttony is the foundation of illness.

Source: Jāmi’ al-‘Ulūm wal-Ḥikam 2/468

Does this mean if somebody eats too many Kit-Kats that they will contract bipolar disorder? Or that due to having a lustful gaze it will cause schizoaffective disorder? The belief that people who are depressed are not receiving enough nutrients is bullshit. Psychologists have proven that it is a chemical imbalance in the brain that causes depression alongside environmental factors.

This belief that mental illnesses are caused by demons and bad spirits. Where did it come from? In fact the Europeans in the Medieval Period who viewed mental illness as demon-related, Muslim scholars of that time, including Ibn Sina (known in the West as Avicenna – the founder of Modern Medicine), rejected such concept and viewed mental disorders as conditions that were physiologically based.

This led to the establishment of the first psychiatric ward in Baghdad, Iraq in 705CE by al Razi (one of the greatest Islamic physician). This was the first psychiatric hospital in the world. According to al Razi’s views, mental disorders were considered medical conditions, and were treated by using psychotherapy and drug treatments. Psychiatric diseases like any other diseases should be treated. The Prophet (Sallallahu Alaihi wa Sallam) said: “Indeed, when Allah created the disease, He created its cure”. [Ahmad]

What sort of remedy should someone take if they are suffering from a mental disorder? Does reciting Qur’an cure schizoaffective disorder? Some Muslims would say yes it does. They would quote from the Qur’an…

Allah Says (interpretation of meaning): {And We send down from the Qur’ân that which is a healing and a mercy to those who believe (in Islâmic Monotheism and act on it), and it increases the Zâlimûn (polytheists and wrong-doers) nothing but loss.}

[17:82].

Similarly, some Muslims believe the weakness of the Iman (right creed) of most people and their weak belief in the predestination are the causes of mental disorders. When it comes to such ignorant beliefs, we cannot give them the light of day. We must be steadfast and supportive of people who suffer from mental illnesses.

In conclusion, I believe the majority of Muslims are ignorant beyond belief. Islam teaches us both spirituality as well as medication is needed to help improve the lives of people who suffer from mental disorders.

Why I Believe In Islam

When asked who inspires me,
Names of 3 unsung heroes come to mind,

Hadrat Ka‘b bin Mālik
Hadrat Ka‘b bin Zuhayr
Hadrat ‘AbdAllāh bin Rawāha

Learned a long time ago,
We have be thankful for all the worldly bounties,
Blessed are we in this life and the hereafter,
Every task given,
Blame only yourself for failure,
While a litany of woes are destined to strike,

Don’t forget about the bounties,
Provided by Allah,
For those who forget are doomed to lead,
An unblessed life,
Sooner than later,
Met with disaster in this life and the hereafter,

Whether Agnostic or Christian,
Jewish or Muslim,
Atheist or Rastafarian,

Riches of this world,
Are not to be relied upon,
Silver, gold, and chariots,
Learn a profession,
For they in themselves are wealth,

بنى‌آدم اعضای یک پیکرند
که در آفرینش ز یک گوهرند
چو عضوى به درد آورَد روزگار
دگر عضوها را نمانَد قرار
تو کز محنت دیگران بی‌غمی
نشاید که نامت نهند آدمی

Remember Adam’s son are limbs of a body,
Created from the same clay,
Should one organ be troubled by pain,
Others will suffer severe strain,
Give in charity for travesty does not discriminate,

Dreaming of Rasulullah SAW’s sword,
From which light is derived,
Do you remember reading of Ka’b?

Is he inclined towards that which is wrong?
Criticized whereas it is most resolute,
Come to Allah and not towards Uzza nor Laat,
You will then attain salvation on the day,
When none shall escape from the Fire,
Except the pure-hearted Muslim,

Inna’r Rasula lasaifun yustadaau bihi
Muhannadun min Suyufillahi maslulu
Fee fityatin min Quraysh-in qaala qaailuhum
Bibatni Makkata lamma aslamu zulu
Zaalu fama zaala ankaasun walaa kushufun
‘Indalliqaai walaa meelu ma’aazeelu
Shummul ‘araaneeni abtaalun labusuhum
Min nasji Dawud-a fi’l hayjaa saraabeelu

Source of light,
Indian Blade,
Drawn sword of God’s swords,
Amid Quraysh companions,

When they chose Islam in Mecca’s vale,
Men said, “Be gone!”,
They went, not weaklings, not as men that flee,
Swaying upon their mounts and poorly armed,
As heroes proud and noble men,
Bright-clad in mail of David’s weave for the encounter,