Faith · Heroic · Hip Hop Influenced · Life · Love · Personal Battles · Religious · Unique · Youth

Lord Give Me Strength

Respect is my Strength,
Lord help me stay Straight,
Everyday is Scared Straight,
Give me Guidance and Strength,

No matter the time,
How high the sun rises,
Enemies flank from all sides,
Fatherless once now he’s returned,
Mother drugged hit point of no return,
Left when the eviction notice was served,
When luck shows up everyone expects handouts,

Separating nightmares from work,
Keeping family close within arm’s length,
Privacy keeps contacts saved under fake names,
Alcohol Anonymous isn’t a mystery since you asked,
Been sober from poison since the last hospitalization,
Trying to hide hands that touched me in April from others,
Communicating with my sexual assault advocate on a daily basis,

Respect is my Strength,
Lord help me stay Straight,
Everyday is Scared Straight,
Give me Guidance and Strength,

Calling me a cheat without understanding,
Only thing I ever cheated on was a Math Test,
Haven’t fucked any other woman besides my Queen,
Conscience asked forgiveness from those I wronged,
Raised by my sister scared of men because of my father,
Majority of rapists are men would rather talk to sisters,

Getting up in the morning is a struggle,
Asking myself if it is worth being scared of shadows,
Afraid of being trapped in an elevator with a stranger,
Smell of Hennessy drives me crazy asking if I want a drink,
Asking the Lord for strength to say no carrying on with my day,
Never have I walked without falling but never have I stayed down,

Respect is my Strength,
Lord help me stay Straight,
Everyday is Scared Straight,
Give me Guidance and Strength,

Faith · Heroic · Hip Hop Influenced · Life · Religious · Unique · Youth

Never Bow

Momma’ raised me to never bow,
At the feet of imperfect people,
All dead and living Presidents,
Kardashians, Pop Icons, and Celebrities,
Fuck all of you and the clique you claim,

Never will you catch me,
Worshiping paper or the military,
Millionaires pretending to be billionaires,
Beyoncé, Kim, or Genocidal Presidents,

Only a fool would bow before imperfections,
Performing silicon surgeries seeking enhancements,
Busy praising chemical warfare of the body,
Chernobyl resides in Hollywood,

Momma’ taught me no matter the title,
Age or income bracket,
Treat everybody the same,
Bow your head, tip your hat,
Wipe with your left hand,

Momma’ raised me to never bow,
At the feet of imperfect people,
All dead and living Presidents,
Kardashians, Pop Icons, and Celebrities,
Fuck all of you and the clique you claim,

High horses hate honesty,
Caitlyn Jenner doesn’t deserve woman of the year,
Minority women discovering new chemical compounds,
Advancing nuclear science surrounded by men,
What has Caitlyn achieved besides a successful surgery?

Doesn’t matter how many zeros,
Boats or square feet,
Buying out establishments,
Short term happiness can’t compare or compete,
Worried about re-tweets when you should be worried about death,

Expecting flashes and attention,
How many years does make-up hide,
For every thousand you spend on non-essentials,
How many homeless could you feed and house,
We are waiting?

Momma’ raised me to never bow,
At the feet of imperfect people,
All dead and living Presidents,
Kardashians, Pop Icons, and Celebrities,
Fuck all of you and the clique you claim,

Heroic · Hip Hop Influenced · Life · Love · Personal Battles · Unique · Youth

Goddess of Desire

Every hour sweating, Every hour bleeding,
Every hour struggling, Every hour crying,

…For you…

No sleep, 24/7,
No rest for the wicked,

Dining at a gentleman’s club,
Three rounds of cricket,
Indian jaws dropping when Beauty flexes,
Comfortable pitching and catching,

Taking it slow,
Louder than Serena grunting in Wimbledon,
Barely 21, rookie out of college,
Riding like a pro earning the veteran’s minimum,

Every hour sweating, Every hour bleeding,
Every hour struggling, Every hour crying,

…For you…

6am, maid service,
Lil Cinnabunz pouring shots of Tequila,

Brown skin, caramel complexion,
African heritage, Asian Goddess,
Black roots, blond highlights,
Purple Calvin Klein set,

Hand-cuffs,
Sliding on top,
Vanilla melting in my mouth,
Face-sitting Goddess,

Every hour sweating, Every hour bleeding,
Every hour struggling, Every hour crying,

…For you…

Driving fast,
Playing Thelma and Louise,

Red lip stick writing a suicide note,
Every kiss sketches scratches on my chest,
Black bikini, midnight sauna visit,
Breathing underwater eating fresh garden salad,

Nipple rings,
Chinese graffiti,
G-Spot activated,
Sirens blaring,
Cops chasing,

Every hour sweating, Every hour bleeding,
Every hour struggling, Every hour crying,

…For you…

Faith · Heroic · Hip Hop Influenced · Life · Love · Personal Battles · Religious · Unique · Youth

Times Don’t Change But Trust Does

Time and time again,
After sharing memories,
Finding texts from his side-piece,
Can’t escape white knuckles,
Fists and broken bottles,
Was told if you run,
Distance would not protect you,

Children scared,
Tired of living out of motel rooms,
Eating fast food,
Public school authorities visit,
Abusive drunk tells them,
Children kidnapped,
By mother,

Raising two teenagers,
One new-born baby,
Work triple shifts,
Midnight till five,
Collecting dollar bills,
During the afternoon,
Serve cocktail drinks,
In the evening,
Busing tables,

When you get home,
Prepare lunches,
Kiss every child,
Tuck them in,
Before crying,

Told him no,
High school prom date,
Went for it,
Called his friends,
Recorded everything,
Senior year of high school,
Debated whether,
Suicide was the answer,

Trust few,
Cautious of most,
Every touch revisits the past,
When future knocks,
Sounds distant,
Next habitable planet,
All you can do,
Fight and kick,

Nobody is safe,
Unless you are White,
Christian or middle class,
Jewish, maybe stingy,
Terrible if you are gay,
Black or Muslim,
Resemble a Mexican,
Good luck finding a job,
Enjoy getting paid,
Based on gender and race,

Socio-economics not enough,
Face to face with a Glock,
Silver badge steps out of a car,
Don’t need to call SWAT,
Black people carry weapons,
No proof or justification,
Child holding a BB Gun,
Bang, Bang, Bang,

Hip Hop Influenced · Life · Love · Unique

Latex Sex

No matter how hard I try,
Can’t find a single quality,
Blemish of beauty,
Which would cause me to love less,
Question or doubt

Everything I see,
Starting with your father dying,
When you were younger,
Struggle intensifying,
Never quitting,
Definition of a SURVIVOR,

Hair on your head,
Aztecs angry,
Perfectly shaped eye-brows,
Blood red lips,
Neck choker crucifixion,
Reflection of us fucking,

No matter how hard I try,
Can’t find a single quality,
Blemish of beauty,
Which would cause me to love less,
Question or doubt

Dominating,
Wearing leather,
Reflective latex,
Forcing me to worship,
High heel boots,
Smooth body,
Unzipping,
Sweat dripping,
Eating pussy,
Water pressure,
Shower head,

Bedroom,
Blindfolded,
Handcuffed,
Bedframe,
Silk panties,

No matter how hard I try,
Can’t find a single quality,
Blemish of beauty,
Which would cause me to love less,
Question or doubt

Windows open,
Sahara desert fire,
Tongue on my chest,
Scratching my rib-cage,
Biting my neck,
Drawing blood,
Pain tolerance,

Standing seductively,
No panties,
Slowly sitting down,
Taking my breathe away,
Starting to grind,
Jaws maneuvering,
Tongue game on point,
Lips soft,
Teeth teasing,

Final position,
Grabbing a surgical tool,
Starting to feel it,
Producing baby magic,
Scissor legs,
Speeding up,
Whisper in my ear,
Which do you want to keep,
Left or right,
After shooting,

Faith · Heroic · Hip Hop Influenced · Life · Love · Personal Battles · Religious · Unique · Youth

Stretch Marks, Waist Lines, Babies, and Cake (Love Em’)

Stretch marks are eye-candy, if he doesn’t kiss them,
Leave him, find a man willing to appreciate them,
Scars defy Vanity, promise to worship them,

Rib-cages with love handles, wide hips make sex faces,
If your weight class, has men running, smoking skinny trees,
Call me, break bed frames, love you when you love yourself,

Skinny bitches wear bikinis, sticks and stones break bones,
Love a woman who eats cake, even when it isn’t my birthday,
Not afraid of calories, cheek bones play hide and cheek,
When you walk across Dubai sands, ass cheeks clap back,
Pregnancy scars, across thick thighs, along waist lines,
Don’t hide stretch marks, they are God’s signature tattoo,

Dark ages, slay medieval dragons, real life you kill models,
Air brush, fake tans, lights, camera, no action,
Real life, play games, whip cream, Judge Judy,
Memorized screenplays, read stage-plays, asked what’s my name,
Wrong answer, face-sitting, can’t breathe, ate booty like groceries,
Tidal waves, heat exhaustion, hurricane, kept riding,

Stretch marks are eye-candy, if he doesn’t kiss them,
Leave him, find a man willing to appreciate them,
Scars defy Vanity, promise to worship them,

Rib-cages with love handles, wide hips make sex faces,
If your weight class, has men running, smoking skinny trees,
Call me, break bed frames, love you when you love yourself,

Personality wider than a plasma 70 inch, tip of the iceberg,
Southern living, fried chicken, baking biscuits, serving lemonade,
Not afraid to say something, always the one to throw the knock-out,
Always asks to stay out after dark, driving with no headlights,
Trespassing on Klansman land, brought spray paint, creativity,
White men don’t own land, painted a Black Fist on the barn door,

Idols, Egypt, Queen Cleopatra ancestor, genetics, flawless,
Afro, Angela Davis poetry, proud to be Black, gold laced melanin,
Nooses don’t scare you, Malcolm your father, X replaced your slave name,
Replaced make-up with a rifle, white sheets afraid to knock,
Most dance to pay for college, you learned how to thank God,
Shake hips, rotate the earth, heritage, ancestors beat drums,

Stretch marks are eye-candy, if he doesn’t kiss them,
Leave him, find a man willing to appreciate them,
Scars defy Vanity, promise to worship them,

Rib-cages with love handles, wide hips make sex faces,
If your weight class, has men running, smoking skinny trees,
Call me, break bed frames, love you when you love yourself,

Anorexic angels, Victoria Secret, exploiting cultural traditions,
Corsets, tight dresses, can’t breathe, not Black, White skeletons,
Don’t be afraid to wear waist hugging jeans, V shape on your lower back,
Trace your spinal cord indent with my tongue from your neck to your back,
Kiss the back of your neck, ask for the check, drop my fork eating sweet cake,
Hear an earthquake, Thor’s hammer, wet floor, find your G-Spot,

Every day we celebrate, can’t find the right bra size, or panties to fit,
Wear one of my dress shirts when we go out, steal one of my sweatpants,
Eat in the back seat, ask for dessert, roll the windows down,
Shooting star, make a wish, taco truck selling on the beach,
Double order in front of a dieting skinny tree,
Watch their mouth savor, pet a conditioned dog,

Stretch marks are eye-candy, if he doesn’t kiss them,
Leave him, find a man willing to appreciate them,
Scars defy Vanity, promise to worship them,

Rib-cages with love handles, wide hips make sex faces,
If your weight class, has men running, smoking skinny trees,
Call me, break bed frames, love you when you love yourself,

Faith · Heroic · Hip Hop Influenced · Life · Personal Battles · Unique

Veterans Raping Foreign Vietnamese, African, and Arab Women

July 4th, independence for Wealthy White men,
Celebrating slaves in chains and scalping indigenous,
Uncle Sam helped Dr. Jekyll butcher Indian children,
Replacing white murderers with statues holding nooses,

Thanksgiving meant to cover the massacre at Bay Colony,
Veterans praised for bravery on the Fourth of July,
Claim they are protecting us from foreign and domestic threats,
When did raping foreign women and anally penetrating men become heroic,

July 4th, a day meant to mourn not celebrate,
Cycles of genocide, nooses, and white sheets march,
Used to be they hid under blankets but now,
Rednecks, clansmen, and decorated purple heart murderers unmask themselves,

Whether it was Bush or Obama,
Neither were saviors of humanity,
Bush hunted down terrorism as if it only wore a turban,
Obama dropped bombs over Somalia, Libya, and Yemen killing thousands,