Sweet Embrace (You Are My Belly Dancer)

My heart weighs heavy,
Whenever you are not in my arms,
It warns me,
If I don’t keep you safe,
Everyday I’ll live in regret,

You are the reason why I wake up everyday,
Willing to fight another day,
Promising this will not be the day that I give up,

Instead, I’ll fight for my life,
Knock down every wall,
Even if it means,
Enduring travesty,
Breaking down,
Crying due to surviving,

Ending with marks on my arms,
Trying to cut away the pain,
Only to realize,
Dull blades have an evil intent,
While your hands,
Only want to bandage my wounds,

My heart weighs heavy,
Whenever you are not in my arms,
It warns me,
If I don’t keep you safe,
Everyday I’ll live in regret,

When I am high above the clouds,
Dreaming of you wearing one of my dress shirts,
Practicing your belly dancing,
Even though you ain’t Egyptian,
Rather Indonesian,

Caramel skin,
When you sweat,
Gold drips from your sweet melanin,
It is a joy to watch,
My dress shirt buttons fly across the room,

Understand, I may be crazy,
Suffering from hallucinations,
My mind knows for certain,
You are my reality,
Not a fictional character,

Ending the night,
In a sweet embrace,
Picking you up,
Hugging on your thighs,
Squeezing your behind,

My heart weighs heavy,
Whenever you are not in my arms,
It warns me,
If I don’t keep you safe,
Everyday I’ll live in regret,


Islam & Mental Health (VLOG 22)

What I am about to say is my own personal opinion. It is based on what I have been told in the past as well as learned about Islam. If you disagree with what I am saying well (fuck off)…

A lot of the time when I talk with other Muslim brothers and sisters. I am treated as a child. As if I know nothing about my religion. I am told Qur’an verse after Qu’ran verse. Most of the time they deal with Satan, spirits, and/or demons.

For instance, I am told frequently…

[Satan] said [to Allah], “Because You have put me in error, I will surely sit in wait for them on Your straight path. Then I will come to them (humans) from before them and from behind them and on their right and on their left, and You will not find most of them grateful [to You].” [ Allah ] said, “Get out of Paradise, reproached and expelled. Whoever follows you among them – I will surely fill Hell with you, all together.”

What does it mean? Well a lot of modern-day Muslims have interpreted it as meaning Satan is the cause of schizophrenia and/or other psychological disorders. Anyone who believes this is a mother-fucker and deserves to be punched in the face. Furthermore, the same Muslims believe other people’s envy can cause mental disorders.

If you ask me whether this is a sign of people’s ignorance or a negative aspect of Islam, I would suggest it is a sign of people’s ignorance. Many Muslims still believe that mental disorders are caused by Jinn, Angels, or Devils. Psychological disorders have become taboo and patients are denied modern treatment.

The next question that should be asked is what sort of evidence do such Muslims use to justify their ignorant beliefs?Ibn Rajab reports that classical Arab doctors would say:

الْحَمِيَّةُ رَأْسُ الدَّوَاءِ وَالْبِطْنَةُ رَأْسُ الدَّاءِ

Diet is the foundation of medicine and gluttony is the foundation of illness.

Source: Jāmi’ al-‘Ulūm wal-Ḥikam 2/468

Does this mean if somebody eats too many Kit-Kats that they will contract bipolar disorder? Or that due to having a lustful gaze it will cause schizoaffective disorder? The belief that people who are depressed are not receiving enough nutrients is bullshit. Psychologists have proven that it is a chemical imbalance in the brain that causes depression alongside environmental factors.

This belief that mental illnesses are caused by demons and bad spirits. Where did it come from? In fact the Europeans in the Medieval Period who viewed mental illness as demon-related, Muslim scholars of that time, including Ibn Sina (known in the West as Avicenna – the founder of Modern Medicine), rejected such concept and viewed mental disorders as conditions that were physiologically based.

This led to the establishment of the first psychiatric ward in Baghdad, Iraq in 705CE by al Razi (one of the greatest Islamic physician). This was the first psychiatric hospital in the world. According to al Razi’s views, mental disorders were considered medical conditions, and were treated by using psychotherapy and drug treatments. Psychiatric diseases like any other diseases should be treated. The Prophet (Sallallahu Alaihi wa Sallam) said: “Indeed, when Allah created the disease, He created its cure”. [Ahmad]

What sort of remedy should someone take if they are suffering from a mental disorder? Does reciting Qur’an cure schizoaffective disorder? Some Muslims would say yes it does. They would quote from the Qur’an…

Allah Says (interpretation of meaning): {And We send down from the Qur’ân that which is a healing and a mercy to those who believe (in Islâmic Monotheism and act on it), and it increases the Zâlimûn (polytheists and wrong-doers) nothing but loss.}


Similarly, some Muslims believe the weakness of the Iman (right creed) of most people and their weak belief in the predestination are the causes of mental disorders. When it comes to such ignorant beliefs, we cannot give them the light of day. We must be steadfast and supportive of people who suffer from mental illnesses.

In conclusion, I believe the majority of Muslims are ignorant beyond belief. Islam teaches us both spirituality as well as medication is needed to help improve the lives of people who suffer from mental disorders.