If I Committed Suicide By Jumping Off The Golden Gate Bridge

I am disappointed in myself, in the world around me, and in those who follow me,
I am disappointed in the ones who love me, in the world around me, and in those who follow me,

If I was able to walk to the Golden Gate Bridge,
Pray to God, ask Him to forgive me,
For what I am about to do, I promise,
While falling, my mind would smile,
Not because I wish to die but because…
If I don’t find a way out, the pain I carry,
Will end up killing me anyways, and walking around,
With this much sorrow, is not humanely possible,

I am disappointed in myself, in the world around me, and in those who follow me,
I am disappointed in the ones who love me, in the world around me, and in those who follow me,

Imagine falling in love at the age of 5,
Keeping your childhood crush through high school,
In college, determined to lose weight,
Studying hard, trying to balance a checkbook,
Managing a descent credit score,
Buying a beautiful home in the country side,
And when you finally build up the courage,
After proposing to him or her,
Left cold, standing alone at the alter,

I am disappointed in myself, in the world around me, and in those who follow me,
I am disappointed in the ones who love me, in the world around me, and in those who follow me,

Suicide is not about seeking attention,
Instead it is about ending pain and misery,
Those who misunderstand suicide,
Use it as a weapon against those who commit suicide,
As a means to justify fake tears,
Instead of asking what did they miss,
How could they have helped or been more supportive,
Much of the world acts like a deer caught in headlights,

I am disappointed in myself, in the world around me, and in those who follow me,
I am disappointed in the ones who love me, in the world around me, and in those who follow me,

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