Good Days & Bad Days

Many psychologists associate high functioning depression with persistent depressive disorder. Which is a prolonged state of depression. Those with high functioning depression may not feel as helpless as those with clinical depression, but their depression does affect tremendously their quality of life.

It minimizes their interest in everything, including social events with friends and family. High functioning depressives will socialize when necessary, and will go to work and school. But once they are done with their responsibilities they will withdraw themselves.

It would be a lie if I told you,
Opening my eyes was easy every morning,
Doesn’t matter if Northern Lights visited the mid-west,
Before I wake my mind prays that my soul left without saying goodbye,

Monday filled with carnival rides,
Sneaking into movie screenings without paying,
Playing ding-dong ditch even though this White man can’t run,
Eating at a fancy establishment with the intention of dining & dashing,
Filled with laughter, joy, and happiness as long as you are my partner in crime,

[The] smallest of incident, most likely an accident,
Instead of logic and intellect my heart screams panic,
Not getting enough sleep, cereal running low, no more 2 percent,
Somebody gives me the wrong look, hearing words not spoken,

It would be a lie if I told you,
Opening my eyes was easy every morning,
Doesn’t matter if Northern Lights visited the mid-west,
Before I wake my mind prays that my soul left without saying goodbye,

Wednesday entertains the idea that everything is alright,
Food tastes good, smell of black coffee,
Witnessing Queens, Goddesses, and Revolutionaries,
Smiled, complimented, shared secrets,
Tossed [her] Garden believed I was in Eden,
Tasted so good asked for seconds,

Life plays a trick, every day is April Fools,
Mother Earth forgot to remind me April Fools was over,
Deceives me in believing everything was alright,
Marley led us to believe everything would be alright,

It would be a lie if I told you,
Opening my eyes was easy every morning,
Doesn’t matter if Northern Lights visited the mid-west,
Before I wake my mind prays that my soul left without saying goodbye,

Friday reminds me why I need Sony Headphones,
Blocking out [the] voices, can’t stand waiting in line,
Earlier in the week I was able to ignore insults,
[The] same can’t be said when Friday prayer comes around,
Tired from trying to be a better person,

Imagine standing on a crowded New York subway platform,
Yelling, screaming, cursing,
This is what I hear on a daily basis,
Instead of normal conversation my ears twist words,
Every altercation ends in me believing I am in danger,

It would be a lie if I told you,
Opening my eyes was easy every morning,
Doesn’t matter if Northern Lights visited the mid-west,
Before I wake my mind prays that my soul left without saying goodbye,

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