Monsters Aren’t Limited To Closets

There are certain behaviors which need clarification,
No judgement, leave your ego outside before asking ‘why’,

For example, I overwork myself…

So that I don’t remember,
So that I don’t relive memory after memory,
So that I don’t suffer from flashbacks,
So that I don’t wake up from night terrors,
So that I don’t hear voices,

Ingrained in my mind; my mother’s body,
Blue lips, cold skin, pale face,
Ingrained in my mind; the night my father died,
Neighbors kicking down our bathroom door,
Ingrained in my mind are needles,
P-T-S-D symptoms,

Would rather work overnights instead of sleeping at midnight,
Afraid of bombs dropping overhead,
Do you hear mothers screaming for help?
Children missing,
Labelled as collateral damage,

There are certain behaviors which need clarification,
No judgement, leave your ego outside before asking ‘why’,

Biological father returned,
Number of times he touched me,
Don’t tell me, I have to forget and forgive,
Stranger rapped me in a mosque parking lot,
Surprised me from behind,
Broke me and left me scarred,

Type of pain rape causes,
Society teaches men have to be strong,
Impossible for a man to be rapped,
He should be strong and fight back,
Now I walk with my back against hallway walls,

Cheap cologne,
Can’t stand grown men,
Impossible to trust,
Intentions never clear,

There are certain behaviors which need clarification,
No judgement, leave your ego outside before asking ‘why’,

Constantly on the move,
Can’t expect me to get over being rapped,
As a child between the ages of 5 to 9,
Sexually assaulted in college,
Watched bombs drop overseas,
Witnessed ceilings collapse on top of children,

Feel comfortable interacting with women,
Not in a flirtatious manner; rather,
‘I understand how dangerous it is to be a woman’,
We live in a society full closet monsters,

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