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Closet Affair

I don’t want you to jump,
Nor do I want you to cry,
Believe me when I tell you,
My Heart, My Body, My Soul,
Questions whether to leap,
Would anybody miss us,

Religion glorifies ignorance,
Calling it a lifestyle, a choice,
Preachers label the act,
An abomination, Sodom and Gomorrah,
Truthfully, the act of hiding,
Concealing one’s natural preference,
Requires energy, time, and strength,

26 years, without hesitation,
Never faked a feeling, or emotion,
No matter who I found attractive,
Attended Pride, kissed a man,
Gay 90’s, Minneapolis,

Find [both] men and women attractive,
Enjoy tossing salad as well as stroking wood,
My life would be in danger if truth escaped,
Qur’an calls for apostates to be killed,

I don’t want you to jump,
Nor do I want you to cry,
Believe me when I tell you,
My Heart, My Body, My Soul,
Questions whether to leap,
Would anybody miss us,

Past homosexual escapades,
Wouldn’t matter whether feelings were true,
Sincere or real, instead, my bi-sexuality,
Would cast doubt upon my marriage,

Humanity stripped,
Physical pain, mental exhaustion,
[The] B in L-G-B-T misunderstood,
Animal, liar, fraud,

Men and women,
Exploration [High School],
Father forgets to knock,
Witnesses his son or daughter,
Sleeping with their class-mate,

[of minority descent]

I don’t want you to jump,
Nor do I want you to cry,
Believe me when I tell you,
My Heart, My Body, My Soul,
Questions whether to leap,
Would anybody miss us,

Pain, terror, nightmares,
Lesbian, Gay, Bi-Sexual, Transgender,
No one enjoys, asks to be, wishes to be raped,
No means No, if someone doesn’t answer,
It means No, fight or flight,

[My] heart races when I walk [alone] at night,
Parking lots frighten me, my worry, HE returns,
Sexual Assault in a Mosque parking lot,

What you feel is real, YOU MATTER,
Don’t allow hatred to stop you from receiving help,
Seek happiness, or at least a friend,
[A] lover, the bridge you stand upon,
Sketches names, forgets faces,
Hold my hand, squeeze it,

In the end, this letter,
Is more than a redemption letter,
It is a love letter, a pen pal letter,
Romantic love affair letter, healing letter,
Burn the letter, a sacred letter,