How To Be A Man (Let em’ Go)

I wouldn’t be the man I am today,
I write a special dedication,
Eradication of hatred,
Don’t get it wrong,
I love you, I love,

Wasn’t the perfect household,
Fell apart several times,
Picked up broken pieces,
Had food in the kitchen,

Divorce rates skyrocketed,
Planned parenthood education,
It wasn’t a joke,
Sounded serious when you used it,

Childish behavior,
Two kids adopted,
Two kids lost,
Couldn’t handle the pressure,

Suppressed anger,
Baggage claim forgotten,
He was young and restless,
Didn’t know when to stop,
Dreamed motion pictures,
Reality never pictured,

Medication deliver evil,
Witnessed daily beatings before he arrived,
Was taken from his mother,
History had a way of repeating,

Blamed psychology,
Israel bombs Palestine,
Self-defense survival,

Jagged past,
Child abuse,
Purple and blue,
Belt whips hide,
Hit em’ enough kids hide,

I wouldn’t be the man I am today,
I write a special dedication,
Eradication of hatred,
Don’t get it wrong,
I love you, I love,

Wasn’t perfect,
Broken church windows,
Needed one way out,

Two different worlds,
White picket fence European,
Downtown run skipping school,
Oscar award-winning,

Physical trampling,
Unjustified beatings,
Witnessing second-hand crimes,
Drives a person mad,

Made me the man I am today,
Taught me how speak truth when asked to be silent,
Raised me not to fear if one is against the wall,
Brought me head on against lies knowing never give in,

Tried to love forced to commit child battery,
Harsh consequences not understanding child’s mentality,
Hit me once, shame on you,
Hit me twice, I pray 2 God,
Hit me three times, forsake me not,

Got up at 2am,
Donated money to a cause in order to feel justified happiness,
Ignorance is bliss

Letting you go,
Not easy but it had to be done,
Making sure the young is protected,
Has to be done,

Medicated,
Beat,
Whisper in his ear,
“They love me”,

After everything,
Suffering trauma,
Before and after I stepped foot in your home,
Senior year,
2 hospital visits,
Week long visitations,

Felt hands,
Forgotten memories relived,
Confused young man,
Suffered visionary beliefs,
Didn’t believe in God,
Muslim after witnessing,

After everything,
College years nightmarish,
Last year spent time in the hospital,
Never visited,
My professor and friends replaced you,

I wouldn’t be the man I am today,
I write a special dedication,
Eradication of hatred,
Don’t get it wrong,
I love you, I love,

Paying everyday for mistakes,
Praying everyday God forgive me,

Made me the man I am today,
Father figures similar views,
Short in stature held love in his heart,
Didn’t know how to show,
Other half took over his actions,

Showed me what it takes to be strong,
How to be a man in world run by tyrants,
Taught me how to treat people,

Made me the man I am today,
Working more than taking care of children,
Blamed him for every mistake in the house,

Taught me how to stand when the world is silent,
How to love everyone regardless of color or creed,

After all the years,
I loved you, I loved you,

I wouldn’t be the man I am today,
I write a special dedication,
Eradication of hatred,
Don’t get it wrong,
I love you, I love,

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