My One & Only

God blessed the way she moves,
God blessed every inch of her body,
God blessed her with top notch intellect,

When I ask her to move it,
When I ask her to shake it,

She doesn’t hesitate,
She bows and prostrates,

Places her palms,
On my chest,
Every bone in my body quivers,

Licks her lips,
Tilts her head,

Kissing me softly,
Riding me gently,

She’s my queen,
She’s my one and only,

My Prophet

He is a Father Figure,
He was a Prophet,

All I wish for before I die,
Being able to extend my hand,
Hold him close;
Adore his smile;

Sahih Bukhari Volume 8, Book 73, Number 114:
Narrated ‘Aisha:

I never saw the Prophet laughing to an extent that one could see his palate, but he always used to smile only.

Playful with children,
No matter the time or day,
During prayer,
He was gentle,

Sahih Bukhari Volume 8, Book 73, Number 25:
Narrated Abu Qatada:

The Prophet came out towards us, while carrying Umamah, the daughter of Abi Al-As (his grand-daughter) over his shoulder. He prayed, and when he wanted to bow, he put her down, and when he stood up, he lifted her up.

(The) best husband,
Never used bad language,
Never cursed,

Sahih Bukhari Volume 4, Book 56, Number 759:
Narrated ‘Abdullah bin ‘Amr:

The Prophet never used bad language neither a “Fahish nor a Mutafahish. He used to say “The best amongst you are those who have the best manners and character.”

Imaging sitting next to your best friend,
Your father,
Your uncle,
Receiving a playful kiss (on top of your head),

Sahih Bukhari Volume 8, Book 73, Number 26:
Narrated Abu Huraira:

Allah’s Apostle kissed Al-Hasan bin Ali while Al-Aqra’ bin Habis At-Tamim was sitting beside him. Al-Aqra said, “I have ten children and I have never kissed anyone of them,” Allah’s Apostle cast a look at him and said, “Whoever is not merciful to others will not be treated mercifully.”

A Different Me (Islam & Indonesia)

Hearing ٱلصَّلَوةُ خَيْرٌ مِن النَّوم every morning,
Waking up to the sound of the azzan,
It holds, speaks to, and comforts,
My soul, My heart, and My Mind,

Indonesia is diverse in practitioners,
Some practice and know the difference,
Between haram and halal,
While a few may wear tight clothing,
Show off certain body parts,

All of this eludes me,
Only one fact should be known,
Rehearsed,
Believed,

Indonesians are funny but lovable,
Yes, quite a few Americans are Muslim,
Just because I come from Amriki doesn’t mean,
I have a lot of money so treat me as your brother,

For the sisters who see a bule (white) person,
You don’t need to go crazy,
Have standards,
Not every white person is worth the trouble,

In the end,
This country has spoken,
Be happy in lieu of all realities,
Whether you are poor, hungry, or tired,

My deen has started to eclipse the sun,
Praying five times a day,
Surrounded by beauty,
Sabir I repeat to myself,

Dear Mother

A day doesn’t go by that I don’t dream,
You never overdosed,
Mother, I wish you were here,
Able to guide me through all the obstacles,
Help me evade all the struggles I’ve faced,

I don’t know if you remember but I do,
That time I couldn’t fall asleep,
I was barely 4 years old,
Wore bedtime attire,
A skeleton costume,

You lifted me up on the kitchen counter,
Whispered in my ear,
‘Are you hungry’,
A smile stretched from west to east,

You fed me milk and cookies,
With side serving of love,
This was one of the good memories,
How about Christmas?

Even though father was abusive,
An Alcoholic,
Do you remember when he bought that blue night-gown,
You became angelic when it was worn,

A day doesn’t go by that I don’t dream,
You never overdosed,
Mother, I wish you were here,
Able to guide me through all the obstacles,
Help me evade all the struggles I’ve faced,

If you were alive,
I wouldn’t have your death as one of my memories,
Christmas day,
Thought you were sleeping,

A 5 year old child,
Not understanding the concept of life verses death,
Thought you were sleeping,
No idea purple lips meant death had arrived,

I laid with you for at least half an hour,
Not aware I was sleeping next to a dead body,
My children like voice received no answer,
After several attempts of ‘mommy wake up’,

A day doesn’t go by that I don’t dream,
You never overdosed,
Mother, I wish you were here,
Able to guide me through all the obstacles,
Help me evade all the struggles I’ve faced,

I have become a male version of you,
Mentally impaired,
Not sure what is real,
Can’t trust my own mind,

Afraid if the smallest detail is out of place,
Can’t trust elevators,
Food not cooked in front of me,
This misguided soul a lost mother’s rightful heir,

A day doesn’t go by that I don’t dream,
You never overdosed,
Mother, I wish you were here,
Able to guide me through all the obstacles,
Help me evade all the struggles I’ve faced,